We all roll along

Do you see the stars glisten,

And ask you for advice?

Do you hear the valley below,

Ever ask you why?

Have you ever noticed the setting sun,

Exhale and then sigh?

The sun shall still set,

And the valley will run on.

The winking starts will light up,

But leave you out to dry.

Do not look for inspiration,

Be inspiration.

Don't go stepping on daisies

Falling to the wooden canvas,

A delicate petal.

In rough hands that show years of hardship,

A luscious green stem,

Crumpled under pressure.

Picked for its beauty,

And its colourful life.

The petal itself,

Is helpless.

Falling to the wooden canvas,

A delicate soul.

An ageing man,

Thin and pale,

Hands violate his throat.

Picked for vulnerability,

And weakness of life.

The man himself,

Is helpless.

Given to fly

Tattooed arms and soft spoken words,

Mesmerising words of hidden secrets.

Flashes of light give a silhouette of life,

Show off to those we love and cherish.

What we were born with,

And how we've evolved.

With wings on our backs,

The days progressed slowly.

I had to reach up high,

To somehow get you back.

Flying to reach you,

Dying to reach you.

I've been up for days,

In the morning light.

Writing on the walls,

Screaming in silence.

Desperate for an answer,
Is the sky my alibi?

Autumn leaves me changing alone,

Revelling in untold confessions.

I stand alone,

On the edge of this cliff.

With tattooed arms,

I'm given to fly.

All I ever knew was not right.

Strumming a guitar, in the silent night.

The echo of chords, take off in the distance.

A melancholy melody of better times,

Rings through the crisp air.

An audience of one watches from above.

The man in the moon.

The man in the moon.

I always seem to give up on myself.

All alone, and nothing for miles.

Except for this here guitar,

And a pocket of ideas.

Fluttering like butterflies,

They want to escape.

But no one will hear them,

Songs for the deaf.

I always seem to give up on my dreams.

As silence overcomes the power of me.

The man in the moon,

Doesn't even applaud.

As the spotlight above me fades.

The curtain will close.

Goodnight, my dear friends.

There's nothing more that I can do.

The words I speak are empty,

The chords I play are silent.

The fire burns itself out.

Forever an artist,

Never a flame.

In retrospect

In retrospect

Our love should have lasted a whole lot longer.

I was there when you woke up,

And there when you fell asleep.

Felt like you were always in my arms,

You held my heart all day.

But only if I could hold this moment,

In the sands of time.

There'd be no need for regret.

In retrospect

I should have kept on smiling.

Though colour faded away,

A shadow of monochrome.

A silhouette of crashing waves,

Delivering a knock-out punch.

Goosebumps covered my arms

And you never said goodbye.

In retrospect

The artist painted a picture.

Which I can still describe,

It had me standing in front of you.

On the shoreline,

We stood so happy and free.
In retrospect,

You had me.

In retrospect

No one was as lucky as I.

And we almost joined hands,

And basked in reflection.

Put on my sunglasses again,

Dipped my feet in the sand.

Oh summer, oh sun.

Please - will you stay?

Three months on top of the world

I started a staring contest with your heart,

My hazel eyes, glazed over with love.

I haven't won this time, sugar.

But summer hasn't even begun.

When the nights become longer,

I'll let you know, baby.

What's behind this emotion,

and what it means to be me.

I'll tell you stories under the stars,

and tell you all you want to hear.

And when the winter draws near,

In the distance, I'll disappear.

All the cliché's honey,

They don't mean a thing.

There's no need for regrets at all.

Because at that very moment,

Everything was what you wanted.

When we kissed for the first time.

As I serenade you,

You give me a smile,

and as butterflies flutter inside me.

Time stood still.

Once again, I beg forgiveness.

The day begins to drag on,

When all you can think of is your family.

And you're stuck sitting at your desk.

Five o'clock can't come quicker.

Tick, tock.

Tick, tock.

Getting out of the car,

Smile ear to ear.

Greeted by my gorgeous wife,

Thirteen years and not a moment of uncertainty.

Her trademark kiss makes things perfect.

Our fort of love,

I climb right in.

Kiss my lovely goodnight,

wishing for sweet dreams.

I love you,

I love you too.

It's all too real now,

As she's crying out for mercy.

Maniacally he laughs,

As blood covers the kitchen floor.

Dropping the knife,

and looking at the bloodied hands -

He knows that this is just right.

Tip toe down the hallway,

With the night-light going in his daughters room.

The silhouette suffocates his sweetheart.

Too small to struggle,

It's all to easy as he takes her away.

He hasn't a care in the world.

As he carries her to the kitchen,

Lays her down next to his wife.

Together they lay peacefully,

Dead.

The insects in his skin, urge him to do the same.

As he hangs himself,

From the rafters.

The family all together once again,

In the kitchen,

Dead.

I awake, sweating heavily.

Panic sets in, but knowing it's a dream -

The heavy breathing eases as I turn for my wife.

She's gone.

Gone, gone, gone.

In utter fear, I run to my daughters room.

She too, gone.

Gone, gone, gone.

Backing into the wall,

With a mixture of fear and sadness.

I sink to my knees.

I too, am gone.

Gone, gone, gone.

A solo duet.

Nights become more blissful,

As the days go by.

I could tell you that I miss you,

But it doesn't mean a thing.

I could call you and tell you,

That the shooting stars are back.

Though, I know you're not going to answer my prayers.

I could kiss your lips,

And you could kiss mine back.

You could keep me warm,

On a snow-filled winter.

Alas, you're gone and not coming back.

I still sit patiently,

Strumming my guitar.

Writing words for love songs,

That no longer mean a thing.

To me, to anyone.

The love light died, sweetheart.

And so have you.

I could take down the pictures,

Of the memories we shared.

It's not like you're coming back.

But this pen is fresh,

and so is its ink.

So this poem will keep on writing itself,

Because I know you still love me.

Tonight I sit,

A former shade of myself.

With an unforgivable smile on my face.

To know you're up there,

Singing this with me -

Makes me never want to stop what you gave me.

Forces of habit.

It might have been love,

It could have been lust.

But what happened between us,

Won't stop clogging my thoughts.

Caught alone in the snow,

and there was no where to turn.

Though there was a light in the distance,

Which was fire from your heart.

Adrift in the ocean,

Counting the days I've been missing you.

It's been so long for me now,

That my love for you has lost count.

The sunset at the beach,

You remember?
I'll never forget

As I counted the freckles on your face

And fell in love with you and your laugh.

Don't let the weather wipe away your smile.

It's always on my mind,

I've taken so many photos of it -

That it lightens up my room.

Hold my hand, my dearest love.

Keep strong by my side,

Never let the secret out -

Of how we both survived.

I couldn't bring myself to do it.

Is this heaven or is this hell?

I can't move my arms or legs,

and I'm suffocating under your eyes.

I feel your stare, but it's warm and kind.

From your big hazel eyes,

Your gaze keeps me safe.

I have to warn you, love.

That there's scars on my heart.

From years gone by,

Too much heartache to handle.

In such little time.

Hold me through winter,

Protection from the cold,

and the demons who haunt us

As our time grows shorter.

There's something you should know about me,

But I don't want to see you cry,

With your gorgeous hazel eyes,

You tell me everything

Without even speaking.

It could be too late,

As I cough up some blood.

I'm sinking, sinking in life.

These tears are remorseful.

Baby - I'm sorry.

I'm walking all the way home

and it's raining this evening.

I see the light at the end of the tunnel,

But the outcome is pure dark.

I stand, breathless - dying.

The sky opened, with a heart-stopping movement.

Selfishly, no longer breathing.

He took me away.

This may not be heaven,

but I'll always remember your eyes.

Burning the mind's eye

Thank god you never loved this city,

As you watch it burn away.

At the hands of eternity -

The fire burns like hell.

The atmosphere fills with fire and smoke,

As well as tears and sadness.

Let hindsight build a better life,

For those who tried to save it.

Let it crumble,

Let it fall,

Let us cry, scream.

"Fuck it all"

The colour red,

burning memories.

Burning the world,

A burning goodbye.

The grey smoke,

Suffocating the world.

Inhale all the toxic smog,

Let it kill us for our sins.

So say goodbye,

Kiss the sky,

Watch it all disappear.

Flush it down,

The rubble, the ash.

We can not start again

Where is my mind?

Time stops,

The room in freeze frame.

The gun on the floor.

Mother fucker,

I'm gonna get to heaven alright.

Blood on my hands,

Blood at my feet.
I'm living with uncertainty.

Will I ever find the words to explain

How I'm breaking down?

Memories - out the window,

I've become a wave of bad news,

Crashing down, and taking you with me.

Oh, how your screams -

Your screams will never be heard.

Heaven awaits, goodbye to thee.

The world not meant for someone like me.

A lifeless soul in the arms of a killer,

But why do my lungs ache when I breathe?

Why am I so cold?

An unmotivated laugh, one of irony.

The last I'll ever laugh.

As time has gone too long for what I've become.

Alas, a starry night at sea,

Will be the end of me.

Your final farewell

Your last goodbye,

Wrapped in a box.

Mailed to our hearts,

Goodbye, goodbye.

Filled with gifts,

That mean the world.

They bring back memories,

To which we hold so dear.

A teary eye and a healing heart,

This brings you back again.

Never will I forget those times

around Christmas time each year.

The open arms and heart you had,

Made each time I saw you so magic.

Though now you're gone,

It's hard to not cry.

Because I love you,

and miss you - my dear.

Save Our Souls - Love Depends On Life

Dipping the feather in ink,

He crafts a poem of love.

Every word he writes,

Is the world.

He wipes the tears away,

The ink starts to smudge.

A man made on pure emotion,

He decided to talk no more.

Words were his life,

But speaking was not.

Writing with such passion,

Writing with such love.

He tells her a story,

Of a broken, broken man.

Who gave his heart to a woman,

In the form of daises and roses.

He spoke of a perfect world,

That was just of her and he.

That this world was the truth,

That lived inside of she.

He then spoke of harsh times,

And dipped the feather again.

He took a breath of uneasiness,

And wrote the passage of love.

He spoke of crashing waves,

and a rusty cage.

He spelled out heartache,

As if he was to blame.

His desperate heart suffocated,

As the love he gave was black.

He set out on a journey of love,

And came back a man of despair.

Oh, oh, oh, oh.

His mind drew a blank.

He never knew the right words to say,

But regardless, this is what he wrote:

"Oh inside,

You feel like needles.

Woman how could you do this to me?

Oh captain,

Who is your captain?

Who hears you crying?

It's okay to cry"

In the air is more than mist

I'll leave my footsteps on the horizon,

and disappear without a sound.

The clouds gather overhead and black,

Cemetery weather.

If I walk all day,

and survive the night.

Maybe something will come,

For those who have nothing to live for.

Bury my conscience,

Under the white owl of night.

The universe shouts to me,

"Come closer to me, my son"

So the present time is nothing,

And the future is something.

The light in the dark is seeping through,

Maybe there is something for me.

Tonight.

You can't run from the truth.

I've got a bad feeling,

My stomach fucking sinks.

Another swig from the bottle,

Another part of me has drowned.

Stumbling, I makes the bathroom.

The mirror shows no reflection.

A soulless man is what I've become,

and I sold it to the bottle.

A broken man cries gin,

In a shaking world he can no longer stand.

The walls bleed mercy,

He can't connect to the real word any more.

He tells myself,

"Just one more drink".

And three days later,

Awakens from a drunken coma.

Pity myself, but my sympathy from those around me.

I used to call them family,

Now they're a vivid, hazy memory.

In happier times, we used to smile.

I used to be a role model,

And made the children smile.

Now I'm lucky to see them,

Now they're lucky they don't see me.

He threatens them all,

With curses and violence.

He blames them all for his problems,

She sinks to her knees and cries mascara.

He leaves the house in a typical fashion.

Car keys in hand,

and sits behind the wheel.

Death do us part.

Death do us part.

This is not a Bobby Darin song.

Drag me down to the bottom of the ocean,

Where life is so quiet.

Take me there, with a smile on your face.

Take me there today.

Tell my friends I'm down below,

Tell them to keep it a secret.

When the time is right I'll come back up,

And whisper I missed you, my dear.

Every breath I take of water,

Brings me closer to happiness.

I fall to the bottom of the blue,

And I do not open my eyes.

In the depths of the calm ocean,

I lay fulfilled tonight.

With a smile on my face, and mystery in the air,

Who has ended my life?

'arina!

Her colour lights up my world,

She turns up the brightness whenever she's around.

It's as soft as silk, her hair.

I run my fingers delicately through it when we kiss.

Eyes, so crystal blue and caring

Every time I gaze upon them, I can see the bottom of the ocean

The calm sea in her eye reassures me,

That everything will be fine.

A smile sends butterflies crazy,

Fluttering their wings like crazy inside me.

It sends me into hysterics,

Every time she smiles blissfully at me.

Lips, so sweet and soft.

Every kiss, a moment in perfection.

Every kiss, I want to last a second longer.
Her lips, her lips, her lips.

Her wacky sense of humour,
The way she makes me laugh.

Everything about this girl,

Is worth every second.

Water for oxygen

Hands bound at the wheel,

Here we go again.

A drive down to the ocean,

And we'll be on our way.

A satanic smile and a laughter of greed.

You're taking me away with the seven seas.

Sailing on doubt and malicious intent.

Incapable of knowing wrong from right.

Two lives go down the drain, tonight....

Bon Voyage, Mr. Bones.

I stand below you,

Arms out and waiting.

For you to bless me with rain.

Douse me in life,

Free me from sin.

Unleash from the heavens above,

An almighty wraith.

Drench us in water,

Drain all our souls.

Wash away our lives tonight,

And make us all suffer today.

Life Lessons And Wise Words Of The Unfaithful

Maybe I wasn't made for this world,

Emptiness, I sit as a shadow, alone.

Overwhelmed, bowed head; crushed.

Life is a battle, and we're dying every day,

Friends never given the light of day.

Destroyed, mentally and physically.

They lie around me, monochrome and lifeless.

Grey, black, white with an eerie tint of red.

Words are muted,

Any cry for help, silenced.

Maybe if I knew something about love.

And maybe if I called God's name,

There would be an end to all suffering.

If only, if only

The suffering would end.

I wish I could turn back to those nights,

and just stay home.

Now, with thoughts unclear.

And unanswered questions,

Because I just don't understand.

For Action And Adventure

Life, so rewarding, so meaningful.

Life, something we all need to cherish.

Make the most of the days you have,

Make every day count,

Make every day count.

You can't live life from your bed sheets.

That's not living at all.

Make people smile,

Make people laugh.

Become life its self.

The gift we all share is something forever,

The gift we all share is a marvellous journey.

Never give up on life.

Be there for the people who love you,

With grace, live with out regrets.

Be the person you want to be because,

You can't live life from your bed sheets.

R.I.P David Te Maipi

The curtains have closed,

Emotions flow deep as our final goodbye is shared.

A hero among men, your smile lit up lives.

You fought hard, and that showed immense courage.

You never showed weakness,

You never let your guard down.

Peacefully resting, a brother and a mate.

A kiss goodbye, I give to you

While whispering softly
"I'll see you soon"
I drew inspiration from you,
I became strong because of you.

Your smile will not be forgotten,
Our friendship, forever cherished.

God bless, I love you.

Fear not, the sun will rise again!

The blood spilt today is motivation to do so,

Rise above us, most glorious sun!

Show that you still care about me.

Bask me in rays, keep me warm please.

You're in my body, you're deep in my soul.

I open my eyes to you, I open my arms

Take me, make me rise, kill me, make me whole.

Never set, never set or fear me with a broken heart.

It was you that got me through.

You're in my body, keeping me warm.

You're blinding us all, except for me.

Take me away with you, to the space in between

In between the air and the world out there.

Take me there,

I'm overdue for dying...