Thursday, October 29, 2009

There's something about him....

Here come's the moon again,
He comes to see us with his cheeky smile.
Winning his hide and go seek game with the sun.
The sparkling stars are nothing compared to him.
Where else do I look with a broken heart?
You seem to absorb me, and guide me.
All the secrets pour out of my heart.
You understand everything about me.
Without you, I fall apart.

Doctor Moon, what's your prognosis?
Should I fill the streets with tears?
He doesn't speak back, but I know he nods politely.
He stares back with knowledge and light.
Reading me like a book.
The stars twinkle around him,
Trying to catch his attention.
But all he focuses on is me.

Thank you Mister Moon.
Thank you so much.
The shoulder I cry on,
The ears who listen in.
The one I trust,
With all my secrets.

Monday, October 19, 2009

Twisted Dawn (part one)

You lot may remember this as UNEDITED which I had written awhile ago. It's just come back from editing. There are a few people I would like to thank before you can read. Daniel Kelly - Thank you so much for editing this. You're truly a great friend. Thanks for all the effort for this to come true. Laura Glogoski - Thanks for all the support you've given me for my writing. Tory Regan - You're extremely honest and I appreciate all you've said to me over the years. Everyone else who's given me feedback over the time, I thank you all endlessly. :)


Twisted Dawn


Silhouettes surround me as the presence of not knowing where I am cloud my waking thoughts. Everything I once knew, everything I once had, has now disappeared. I stare up at the moon, unwillingly – I am bloodied and bruised – why do I stare? Incoherent speech floods my ears… I think. I am more worried about how I got here than what is being said. Hands bound, I tense to break the shackles of confusion. Fear of not getting out strikes at me, sharp…stabbing.

"What have I ever done to deserve this?" I stammer.

"What haven't you done?" These words are pounded into me.

Tall trees shelter any geographical landmarks I may recognise. I am so dense in this forest I would not know which way to get out. Laughter erupts from an old GMC pick up truck. The interior light is on and from what I can make out, they both seem to be holding something. They begin to head my way before I can get a good lookI black out.

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The next time I regain consciousness, it is day light. The hill I’m on gives me a good view of the unfamiliar terrain; tall green pines seem to go on endlessly - a depressing sight, banishing thoughts of escape from my mind. I see now that the pick up truck is silver, with a mismatched red drivers door. The silhouettes inside are now people. There are two of them, one of them very distinctive, towering at about six foot six inches - solid and sturdy. His head shaven, eyes a piercing hazel; a ginger goatee completed the look. As he looked over at me, he knew I was awake. I didn't know what to expect.

"You're here for a reason, and you know it too jackass." His voice is deep and bellowing. The hairs stood up on the back of my neck as I processed his words.

"A reason? Oh of course I know!" I answer.

He picks up the sarcastic tone in my voice, his facial expression changes, he’s now angry.

"You really know how to piss people off, don't you?" As he finishes his sentence, he deals a damaging blow to my nose. It reminds me of high school, and the days I spent head first in the toilet as bullies made sure I knew who the boss was.

"If you keep talking, I will keep going." His voice seems to shake the ground, surely registering on the Richter scale. I sit up, my hands still bound…the grip seems to have tightened. The sun was trying to pierce through the thick cloud. It must be about midday.

The other guy comes over to me, a balaclava covers his face but I see he is about five foot nine inches, with brown eyes. That is all I can make out as he picks me up. I’m unwilling at first, but I realise if I cooperate, I might gain some valuable information.



We walk for about five minutes, for which I decide not to speak. As we walk, he speaks to me, but I still find it difficult to hear and can’t make out what he is saying. I hear what I think are profanities and decide not to bother questioning him. A few hundred metres later we arrive at a river, it isn't too wide and the water is crisp. The soothing sound of water flowing over rocks fills the air, the first sound besides those in my head that I've heard in a long time. Despite the dire circumstances, I find it calming, even pleasant.

I am thrown to the ground, the five minute walk was clearly too much time alone with me, at least that’s what the look of disgust on his face tells me. He pulls a knife, my heart starts beating rapidly. He walks behind me; I do not break eye contact. Fear grips me tightly. He takes hold of my bound hands and cuts them loose. My heart skips a beat, then returns to a semi-normal rate.


"Go, wash yourself. I'll give you ten minutes, and then you're done."

His words were beyond intimidating. I gave him a small nod and proceeded to bathe in the river.

The water is cold. I run my fingers through my hair as the water soaks my body. It’s a relaxing sensation. A feeling I haven’t experienced in what seems to be an eternity.

"That's enough. Get your ass out of the river."

He no longer had his balaclava on and his chiselled facial features were clearly visible; a strong jaw line, a clean face, and short brown hair that seemed to be receding. As I make my way out of the river, he didn't bother about binding my hands.

On the walk back I notice there are no tracks leading to the camp. I have no idea how we got here or how I can escape. I try not to look suspicious as I scan my surroundings, I casually move my head left to right, appearing to track the movements of nearby wildlife.

Once back at the pickup, he shoves me to the ground. For the first time since being taken captive, my hands save me from a face-plant. I turn over. The man with the ginger goatee stares back at me from the end of the barrel – the gun is pointed directly at my face.

The seconds pass as if they were minutes. Our gazes lock, nothing dare brakes our concentration. A smirk slowly spreads across his face; it turns then to a smile and then full on laughter. So maniacal. I keep my eye contact with him but I can’t help the thoughts crossing my mind, wondering why he is laughing.

"Ha-ha, I won't kill you. Yet."

He says to me, with particular stress on the ‘yet’. I can feel it, my time is coming. The when and why elusive now, but it is certain; as certain as I know the sun will rise tomorrow. He pushes me to the ground and walks off, toting the gun on his shoulder and walking back to the truck.

Twisted Dawn (part two)


I walk through the door, to find the bitch lying in the bathtub; she shrieks and begs for mercy. Like hell she'll get that. I pull a machete from my back pocket, her screams get increasingly louder. Not for long. I stab her, and it's empowering I just can't stop. I stab over fifty times and it is fantastic. She had it coming to her; she knew that I would come back. I am a man of my word. Her lifeless body sinks to the bottom of the now red water. I pulled the paper out of my pocket and crossed out her name. Three to go. They will all go like you.

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I wake up to rain dripping onto my forehead. It's pouring and cold. I hear the roar of thunder in the distance and a bolt of lightning illuminates the horizon. I scramble under a nearby pine tree to try to gain some protection from the wild weather. I begin to remember the dream I had. I killed somebody? Was this even a dream? Maybe this is why I am here. Questions bombarded my mind; I have no idea how to answer or where to start.

I look over to the truck to see the two men asleep. I try think back, as hard as I can, to remember how I got here. I have no recollection, and the puzzling events leading up to where I am today are starting to give me a pounding headache. This is all too confusing, I really am overwhelmed with it all. I feel like breaking down, showing utter weakness. I know I can't. Not yet. My head continues to pound like a boxer giving deadly blows to one against the ropes. This is too much for me. I sit myself against the tree and try my best to get back to sleep.

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Yeah, this is it. 639 Forde Street. I try the handle of the door, it's locked. Fuck it. I kick the door down and I hear someone call out. That's the voice I am familiar with. That's the voice I'm looking for. I turn left into the kitchen, to see a balding man. Bingo. He tries to get out of his seat, stumbles and falls to the ground. He pleads to me, like it’ll do his soul any good. Before I pull out my trusty 9MM he throws a knife at me which slices my right forearm. I hesitate for a short second. Enough to smirk; and then shoot, emptying an entire magazine into his obese corpse. I wipe my blood on his face in a disrespectful manner.. Two down, two to go.

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It's now daylight. The sun is shining somewhat, but the temperature feels the complete opposite. What the hell was last night all about? The dreams I am having are really starting to freak me out.

The wind blows gingerly across my face, carrying with it laughter. The two men are sharing a joke. I get off the grass and walk over to the pick-up. I lean on the side as they eye me up, I sense another beating coming. The man with the ginger goatee pushes me out of the way and grabs a tyre iron from the back of the pick up. Anger has clearly overwhelmed him.

He begins to bellow at me "You want to know how it feels? Huh? You want to feel the torturous pain you left on families after what you did? People like you don't deserve to live."

Before I can say anything, he swings wildly at me. I fend off the first blow and something catches my eye. A scar, about 5 inches long on my right forearm. Identical to the wound I had in my dream. What the hell does this mean? Am I....Am I a....

My eyes are caught on what seems to be a breakthrough with my sceptical dreams. Without focusing on what else is happening, I crumble to the ground. The man with the goatee doesn't let up, I cop a devastating blow to my knee. He's laughing manically, and I'm losing focus. I black out in a heap next to the truck.

Twisted Dawn (part three)

The weather was dark and ominous, mirroring the mood…just how I like it, a smile spread across my face at the thought of it. I stepped out of the Mercedes and ran to shelter. I flicked the rain off my trench coat with my hands and check myself in the windows reflection. It's go time. The weapon of choice was my 9mm; I felt under my coat for the holster, assuring me it is where it should be. The door was ajar…something was not right. I stepped into the hallway, family portraits are plastered over the walls. I stopped and peered at one, recognising two people. My targets.


I creep down the hardwood hallway. The steps I took echoed throughout the house loudly even though I was being extremely careful. I know something isn't right here. Are they gone? How could they be gone? They don't know anything about me, and what I was about to do.

The bedroom is to the second left. Before I turn the handle to enter; I take a deep breath. Air, my motivation. That's all I need now. The door now open, I see my targets lying in bed. I think myself it couldn't be any easier. As I draw the 9mm out of my holster, I am struck from behind. Unwillingly I fall to the ground. The bear-skin rug did nothing to stop my head hitting the ground in a rough and harsh way The gun flies under the bed and I lay on the ground motionless. I can feel myself my mind fading, I’m about to black out. Before I do though, I hear the forceful words of "Hey boss, he's down."

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I wake, knowing what I am. There's nothing at all about me that questions it. I am a monster; I am nothing close to human. I am a killer; a damn good killer. The victims meant nothing to me at all. I'd seen them on the train, at the supermarket, at the mall. They knew little of my existence. Maybe a sly smile I could have given once or twice, would of been the only acknowledgement I'd ever given them before those fateful nights. Maniacal laughter erupts from within me. The best of me is the worst in me. They know the truth, and now so do I. I am no longer living life in a shade of uncertainty. I am a force to be reckoned with. My victims were just innocent people. The newspapers can now read 'William Kelly did this.'

"You fucked them over! You're a lunatic! You're not human; you’re shit! A worthless piece of trash. This is the end. Don't bother begging for your life. You have none."

His words mean nothing to me; he is just a man with a goatee. I am the superior one; I am one top of the world.


With a single bullet, he was right. Monsters like me don't deserve to live.

Sunday, October 18, 2009

And maybe one day, she'll know my name....

Even a thousand miles away, you still glow on the horizon.
The illumination you make, lights up my all.
And the glow shows on my heart.
And reflects back on how you've changed my life.
Everything about you, seems to be surreal.
How can dreams taste so sweet, though?
Your lips on mine are a perfect match.

The sun comes up when we're together,
And shines down all it's light and glory.
And every night I go to sleep, darling.
I know you'll be there in the morning.
Your eyes are my street-lights,
Who guide me on my way.
No matter what the weathers like,
You're my night and day.


The seas I'd part to see you,
The planes I'd catch to touch you.
The miles I'd run to hold you,
The thing's I'd do to show you,
Just how much I love you.

Saturday, October 17, 2009

Nothing seems to change

Happiness is an eye-catching girl,
Making the sun that much brighter.
Her scent brings a smile to your face,
As you can't help but stare.

Every kiss you share, heightens you.
Builds you up.
Everything about her makes it all worth while.
She makes love sound easy.

Morning comes, without her.
Once again, it rains and pours.
Always one step ahead,
and you're a sucker for love.

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

Dear little Aisling


Roses cover the front of the property where you were found.
An accident, a true heart shattering accident.
The whole country stopped to find you,
And find you we did.
But we were just too late.
Your smile lit up your parents life,
You were loved, undoubtedly
You covers the front pages of papers,
Prayers were made with your name.
No longer alive, but forever remembered.
A little girl, who deserved her life
Taken, by the wind.

R.I.P Aisling Symes.

Saturday, October 10, 2009

Going under, looking up.

Speckled skies above me,
As I sail away in this boat of life.
I gaze up to see the crescent moon smiling,
The orb of night listens to my confessions.
The tears flow into the ocean,
Deep blue, and full of lost lovers and secrets.
The wind whispers
dive, dive.

I sing aloud, an ode to myself.
"Sinking ships and lovers lies
Tonight it seems I will die
I scream aloud, going below.
Tonight I am the forgotten man."

I hold my breath as the stars wave goodbye.
Their last ditch efforts of crashing to earth,
Are not enough to save me from myself.
I sink below, into broken hearts
and a reservoir of valentine's tears.

I need a spring in my step.

The day greets us with a frozen handshake.
It's ice-cold fingertips makes me shiver all over.
His words strike me deep,
"I've kidnapped spring"
Every morning, I now awake.
In my warm haven, scared to dip my toes out.
Because I know you've stolen spring.
My jersey is just enough to keep you from affecting me.

I peer over my shoulder,
There you are with your vile smile.
Maniacally laughing away, with blood-shot eyes.
Bring me back my spring you bastard.
You've already had your turn this year.

Tuesday, October 6, 2009

I have no idea why I wrote this crazy Alice-In-Wonderlandesque poem.

You know there's always tomorrow.
Tomorrow though, never comes.
In its suspense, it teases us.
So close, yet so far away.
Taunting us, tomorrow slows down time.
Every tick,
Every tock,
Slower.
Tomorrow laughing at us,
We're suckers for tomorrow.
Always wanting it,
Always waiting for it,
Yet,
It never comes.

Thursday, October 1, 2009

If you run

Don't give up.
Don't give in.
The future of himself depends on it.
His alter-ego pictured in his mind.
Motivating him, giving him that needed boost.

Don't give up.
Don't give in.
Sweat drips off him, he is pushing himself to the max.
His heart beats frantically,
His legs, cramping up.
His alter-ego pictured in his mind.

Don't give up.
Don't give in.
Every beat of the music,
More motivation for him to do it.
Every step, closer to his goal.
With his alter-ego pictured in his mind.

Don't give up.
Don't give in.