Steve-O's May. Update. What's new in his life and what not.

So May - where the fuck did you come from? Where the fuck have you gone?

What a quick month.

Basketball is going really well, the guys I coach and play for are three wins and one loss. We need one more win to be promoted. Good stuff.

Rugby League pre-season is going good. Hard trainings; my body is pushed every day and it's really rewarding. Hope we get enought boys to go to Nats. I would really love it if we could. Playing infront of NRL scouts - now that would be something to be proud of. Winning will come with the teams hard work and our brotherhood. I love being a team full of guys who are all good friends, where we can joke around and have some fun. Sure - I am not the fittest, strongest of best player. It feels as if I am when I am with the guys. Pure encouragement is another step towards my determination and without their help I don't think I could do it.

Upper Hutt Springboks; my rugby team. Social team but damn fun. Hannes Venter you truly are one of the best people I know. Thanks for letting me into this team and it's rewarding. Getting up and playing on a Saturday rather than having a lathargic Saturday is actaully good. Sure; we haven't won a game yet but it's a fuckload of fun playing with you lot.

School is going quicker than I hoped. It's almost June. The intervals and lunchtimes we spend (Cafe Crew whaaaat!) is really getting more and more cherished as each day goes by. In six months we will all go our seperate ways. I will think more about our break up when the time comes; but at the moment I am too busy loving every day hanging with our big group of friends. Pretty much we are whanau. Cafe Crew forever.

There's absolutely no chance of my passing Level Three. To be quite frank I couldn't care less. I have people skills. I am an outgoing and hardworking peron when I need to be. I think I will be fine with a job. I will get by. I have faith.

My girlfriend Danni, yeah we've been together for a month but out connenction together has been longer than our relationship. You're such an amazing person with a personality that I am really into. You make me smile all the time and even if we spend only the weekend together it makes everything way more awesome. You are a really fantastic girl and I know there's something special between us.

40 Hour Extreme Famine is next weekend. Your Weekend; their life. That's the tagline World Vision have this year and it's entirely true. It's the least I can do for those who suffer day in and day out. Feel free to donate some moolah my way. Extreme Famine :) www.famine.org.nz/SWTsoui

To everyone who reads this. Thank you. I love being able to express myself with people looking on and reading it. It's pretty mint.

Until the next time I write to this thing. Woop woop catch you later

A boy brushed red, living in black and white.

Can you feel your heartbeat racing?
Can you taste the fear in her sweat?
You've done this wrong it's too far gone 
These sheets tell of regret
I admit that I'm just a fool for you
I'm just a fool for you

Here is where we both go wrong

Tonight's your last chance to do exactly 
what you want to
And this could be my night
This is what makes me feel alive
Makes you feel alive

Here is where we both go wrong
So tie me up and toss this key
'Cause for now we're living

In this moment that we both ignore the truth
It's all over!
It's all over!

I feel your heart against mine
So take a breath and close your eyes, eyes

Your lungs have failed 
and they've both stopped breathing
My heart is dead and it's way past beating
Something has gone terribly wrong 
I'm scared, you're scared, we're scared of this
I never thought we'd make it out alive
I never told you but it's all in your goodbyes
It's all in your goodbyes

Well, look who's dying now slit wrists was sleeping
with the girl next door
I always knew you were such a sucker for that
It doesn't matter what you say
You never mattered anyway
I never mattered anyway

In this moment that we both ignore the truth
It's all over
It's all over

I feel your heart rubbing against mine
So take a breath and close your eyes, eyes

Don't shake, I hate to see you tremble
tremble like you've lost your touch haven't you?
I'm so addicted
So addicted

If a raptor wrote this; they'd call him a philosoraptor.

I sit and look, time has fast-forwarded.

I barely can remember my childhood memories; let alone saying good morning.

I remember there was once a time I didn't even know what facial hair was.

I remember the time when being cool was being able to do the monkey bars.

What was all that about?

Something was missing, and yet we always wish we were younger because of being closer to growing up.

I'd rather grow up, then go back in time.

Face challenges that I have been moulded to deal with.

Grow old with friends and family.

Grow up with many adventures and stories to tell.

Never looking back, loving every second of this.

How can you tell time, when time if just a fragment of disillusional imagination?

Time is what we make it, and what we make of it.

I say there's no such thing as regret

I say there's no such thing as maybe

I say we take life; with two hands.

Own it; make it yours.

You only have one shot, don't let yourself down.

Live for now. Live for forever.